"And fucking--when is it all going to stop? Am I going to jump from rock to rock for the rest of my life until there aren't any rocks left? Am I going to bolt every time I get itchy feet? Because I get them about once a quarter, along with the store's tax bill. I've been thinking with my guts since I was fourteen years old and, frankly speaking, I've come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains." --Rob Gordon
that was a classic quote from one of my all time favorite movies, High Fidelity. A movie about fear of commitment, hating your job, falling in love, and other pop favorites.
i haven't been this fond of someone since hmmmmm since i was like 19. ever since the demise of my first great love, i've somehow come across a few gents that seriously can't hold my attention for more than a month. this one actually feels different. scary, no? well, i'm terrified, there must be a reason why i still keep this lad around..this is right about the time i get "itchy feet". but instead my palms get sweaty, my tummy flutters and i really do try to look pretty for our dates and shit. hahahahaha. it's a fun feeling, but i'm scared shitless most of the time. oh no, let's see where this goes..
st. patty's 2009..this is actually the first st. patrick's day i've ever celebrated..i've never really been a fan of green beer. i'm still not!! hahaha, just the usual vodka tonic all night. either way good times at Red Rock, haven't been there in a while..the dj was actually GOOD..then off to Roosevelt Hotel for those bomb ass sweet potato fries..yummmmmmm cheap & good and 24/7. i love 24/7 shit =)
p.s. that bitch all up on my nuts. hahaha. hot damn.
secret diary of a call girl
duuuuuuude i just saw the season finale of season 2!!!! sooo good. i love this fuckin show. anyways don't wanna give it away or nuthin but i like the direction of where the show is goin..it ain't givin u no runaround and shit..it comes with the TRUTH, i love it. doesn't try to sugar coat or anything but anyways..i was noticing she was gettin kinda chubby this second season..but it's cause she was preggo!! well for sure there's gunna be a season 3..so ya'll best catch up on that shit..this show is so delightful and charming it's worth getting the DVD. anyways if you're too broke just catch up here online click this link enjoy!!
100 days, 100 songs, 100 locations, 100 dances. + his song list ain't bad at all. you'll enjoy this..hahaha i sure did. thank me later, over lunch or somethin
100 Songs:
001. Heart of Glass / Blondie 002. Jimmy / M.I.A. 003. Deceptacon / Le Tigre 004. Im on Fire / 5000 Volts 005. Je Veux Te Voir / YELLE 006. The Way I Are / Timbaland 007. Too Young / Phoenix 008. Over And Over / Hot Chip 009. Stick It To The Pimp / Peaches 010. Say My Name / Destiny's Child 011. Pin / Yeah Yeah Yeahs 012. Geremia / Bonde Do Role 013. Let Me Clear My Throat / DJ Kool 014. Point Of No Return / Expose 015. Bubble Sex / The Seebach Band 016. Pump Up the Jam / Technotronic 017. Let's Make Love And Listen To Death From Above / CSS 018. Hella Nervous / Gravy Train 019. Me Plus One / Annie 020. Don't Go / Yaz 021. Bootylicious / Destiny's Child 022. Electric Feel / MGMT 023. Boys Don't Cry / The Cure 024. Lose Control / Missy Elliott 025. Ride The Lightning / Evans And Eagles 026. Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough / Michael Jackson 027. Hearts On Fire / Cut Copy 028. Tainted Love / Soft Cell 029. Between Us & Them / Moving Units 030. It Feels Good / Tony Toni Tone 031. Polaris (Club Mix) / Cyber People 032. You Never Can Tell / Chuck Berry 033. Huddle Formation / The Go! Team 034. Pump That / FannyPack 035. My Love / Justin Timberlake 036. Hung Up / Madonna 037. Justice - D.A.N.C.E (MSTRKRFT Remix) / Justice 038. Cybernetic Love / Casco 039. Creep / TLC 040. When I Hear Music / Debbie Deb 041. B.O.B. / Outkast 042. Bubble Pop Electric / Gwen Stefani 043. Miss You Much / Janet Jackson 044. You Spin Me Round / Dead Or Alive 045. Slide In / Goldfrapp 046. Kelly / Van She 047. Mine Fore Life / The Sounds 048. Disco Heat / Calvin Harris 049. Nighttiming / Coconut Records 050. Club Action / Yo Majesty 051. Pogo / Digitalism 052. Lip Gloss / Lil Mama 053. Heartbeats / The Knife 054. Enola Gay / OMD 055. Goodbye Girls / Broadcast 056. Kids In America / Kim Wilde 057. Kiss / Prince 058. Tenderness / General Public 059. Push It / Salt N Pepa 060. Circle, Square, Triangle / Test Icicles 061. Day 'N' Nite (Crookers Remix) / Kid Cudi 062. Shadows / Midnight Juggernauts 063. Paris (Aeroplane Remix) / Friendly Fires 064. Out At The Pictures / Hot Chip 065. Me Myself and I / De La Soul 066. AudioTrack 10 / Diplo 067. Girls & Boys / Blur 068. Heater / Samim 069. I Wanna Dance With Somebody / Whitney Houston 070. Hands In The Air / Girl Talk 071. Limited Edition OJ Slammer / Cadence Weapon 072. Meeting In The Ladys Room / Mary Jane Girls 073. NY Lipps / Soulwax 074. Lex / Ratatat 075. Gravity's Rainbow (Soulwax Remix) / Steve Aoki 076. Once In A Lifetime / Talking Heads 077. Leave It Alone / Operator Please 078. Half Mast / Empire Of The Sun 079. Hardcore Girls / Count and Sinden feat. Rye Rye 080. Dance, Dance, Dance / Lykke Li 081. Never Gonna Get It / En Vogue 082. Blue Monday / New Order 083. Crazy In Love (Featuring Jay-Z) / Beyoncé 084. 10 Dollar / M.I.A. 085. Love To Love You Baby / Donna Summer 086. Steppin' Out / Lo-Fi-Fnk 087. Karle Pyar Karle / Asha Bhosle 088. Love Will Tear Us Apart / Joy Division 089. Straight Up / Paula Abdul 090. My Drive Thru / Santogold, Casablancas, NERD 091. Like A Prayer / Madonna 092. Freedom 90 / George Michael 093. Black & Gold / Sam Sparro 094. B-O-O-T-A-Y / Spank Rock and Benny Blanco 095. Great Dj / The Ting Tings 096. In A Dream / Rockell 097. Don't Stop the Music / Rihanna 098. Hong Kong Garden / Siouxsie & The Banshees 099. It's Tricky / D.M.C. 100. Bizarre Love Triangle / New Order
"Dear Diary, I am writing in your bullshit pages because my shrink is crazier then I am. He thinks you're therapy."
anyways enough of that nonsense. on about my day.. i bought wax today!! i figure it's gunna cut my cost of living. rather than getting bikini waxed every month, i'll just by the pot/wax myself and do it myself. i mean i used to practice this at school and shit. after all, i am a cosmo graduate. hahaha. how hard could it be. right? but while i was in school we used to just wax normal body parts i.e.legs, arms, upper lips, brows even armpits. we never really waxed each other's pussies. i'm a brave girl though. i got my mirrors ready. and did it. andddddd it hurt like hell. you know the kind of pain when your face gets hit by a ball?! it was like that, but worse. hahaha. (u know!! like when your eyes tear up but you don't really need to cry) omg it hurt waaaay more than someone else doing it..but it's do-able!! it was successful and painful. but i feel like a newborn again. i almost feel like a virgin..i guess that's what's so great about being waxed.. it's like your a brand new virgin everytime. hahahaha. i'm so crazy, don't listen to me.
p.s. This is what the alphabet would look like if Q and R were removed. p.s.s. i bet no one got that P.S. joke..hahaha well anyways i checked out that movie, from my previous post. it wasn't that great. the sweds are a little weird about their movies + there was a cunt-shot and that wasn't pretty.
i really wanna see this movie tomorrow. last showing is at 10pm at fairfax/beverly..can't waittt
"Thank you for every kindness. Thank you for our children. For the first time I saw them. Thank you for being someone I was always proud to be with. For your guts, for your sweetness. For how you always looked, for how I always wanted to touch you. God, you were my life. I apologize for everytime I ever failed you. Especially this one... "
What Dreams May Come i <3 this movie..one of the dopest deepest movies ever made
The Rasterbator or tiled printing, is a feature of many computer programs that enables them to print images larger than a standard page. the program overlays a grid on the printed image in which each tile is the size of a printed page and then prints each tile. a person can then arrange the tiles to reconstruct the full image. i decided to to do 2 images. the first one is of marley in my room..it's from the floor to the ceiling..i was at kinkos for like 2 hours for this one. and the second one is of depp in blow, i placed that one above my toilet. i've officially become the rasterbating bear..hahaha but here, i like to share so here's the link now rasterbate!! hahaha.
my camera broke, sucksssss..so i'm just taking these pics from my computer.
i was watching this documentary on kurt cobain today on the sundance channel. yeah i know, pretty morbid for a sunday afternoon. it was called Kurt Cobain: About a Son. and the voice of the byronic grunge rock icon is heard in excerpts from revealing interviews recorded a little more than a year before his 1994 suicide. cobain is heard ruminating about fame, drugs, his childhood and his band. it made me really sad. he was so talented, yet so tormented. okay ima stop being so emo now. ugh i hate that word. haven't read this in like over ten years..but here you go.
text version is below
"To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney =), for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
"And fucking--when is it all going to stop? Am I going to jump from rock to rock for the rest of my life until there aren't any rocks left? Am I going to bolt every time I get itchy feet? Because I get them about once a quarter, along with the store's tax bill. I've been thinking with my guts since I was fourteen years old and, frankly speaking, I've come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains." --Rob Gordon 
secret diary of a call girl
"Dear Diary, I am writing in your bullshit pages because my shrink is crazier then I am. He thinks you're therapy." 
anyways enough of that nonsense. on about my day.. i bought wax today!! i figure it's gunna cut my cost of living. rather than getting bikini waxed every month, i'll just by the pot/wax myself and do it myself. i mean i used to practice this at school and shit. after all, i am a cosmo graduate. hahaha. how hard could it be. 
top 5 things about me rye now:
The Rasterbator
i was watching this documentary on kurt cobain today on the sundance channel. yeah i know, pretty morbid for a sunday afternoon. it was called Kurt Cobain: About a Son. and the voice of the byronic grunge rock icon is heard in excerpts from revealing interviews recorded a little more than a year before his 1994 suicide. cobain is heard ruminating about fame, drugs, his childhood and his band. it made me really sad. he was so talented, yet so tormented. okay ima stop being so emo now. ugh i hate that word. haven't read this in like over ten years..but here you go.
