irretrievable

Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know.
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it
damn it, everytime i watch this movie..it always kinda fucks me up. it makes me think about the past and gets me a little bit sad. i'm so gay. anyways i'll live. i just gotta shake it. Off. let's not tell our sad stories now. so goodnight now.

gat damn

lemme hit that.. evavavavavooom mendes

A few months ago that U.S. TV networks refused to air Calvin Klein and Coty's commercial for their new fragrance Secret Obsession; Calvin Klein recut the spot — starring a naked Eva Mendes — so that it could air on TV after 9 p.m. for the holiday season. Nevertheless, the company is determined not to let the original version go to waste. So, in a brilliant marketing move, they've More..put the unedited version, complete with the actress rolling around naked in the sheets and flashing her nipple, online.





in other news, my ex lover is going on this 3 week vacation to asia, where he took me to last year. wait that ain't all, the plot thickens..this year he's takin his new chick!! oooowwwwch. yeah it hurts. not much. but it still stings.






moving on, i found out my graduation date from beauty school..it's at the end of september!! yeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaa. i can't wait to quit my shit job, and finally be done with skl. why?!? i get paid shit and i basically work two jobs.






and finally,this is what i'm looking forward to this year, im saving up for this puppy..
no for real, it's a puppy!!

ever since i was old enough to wanna have dogs, i've always wanted a french bulldog. i think this might be the year i get one. fuck i deserve it.





shoutout bday: cinz, love you dollface.


[pics @ boiling crab]

midnight love

you fools remember midnight love??.hahaha i sure do. i reminisce i reminisce.

so anywayzzz on with the late night dedications..you'd never believe me(don't. i don't care). but this goes out to, my love for, a married man. hahaha. aaaahh shiiiit here it is..

u jus ain't down anymo

i was already having a bad day..and it got even worse. it goes a little deeper than the surface situation of what it may be. i dont care to ever mention it. i only told my sisters(+in-law) about it.

whatever happened..in my "bad day"..im still in a much better spot than i was just a year ago..bouncing from family/friends' houses, pretty much living outta my car..so despite the raw reality checks/realization that i did experience today..i still feel very blessed to be where i'm at.



im reading this book..

and it helps with being positive..with your life..no matter what the circumstances.
here's an excerpt i find useful in everyday life.. tests.. trials.. depression.. whatever it may be..

To the ego, the present moment hardly exists. Only past and future are considered important. The total reversal of the truth accounts for the fact that in the ego mode the mind is so dysfunctional. It is always concerned with keeping the past alive, because without it - who are you? It constantly projects itself into the future to ensure its continued survival and to seek some kind of release or fulfillment there.
It says: "One day, when this, that, or the other happens, I am going to be okay, happy, at peace." Even when the ego seems to be concerned with the present, it is not the present that it sees: It misperceives it completely because it looks at it through the eyes of the past. Or it reduces the present to a means to an end, an end that always lies in the mind-projected future. Observe your mind and you'll see that this is how it works.

THE PRESENT MOMENT HOLDS THE KEY TO LIBERATION.


doesn't it sound like something Tyler Durden would say??..that guy is much deeper than he looks =)

cruel dream

so i just woke up..it's like 12pm. i had this dream last night..more like a nightmare. i dreamt i was moving into an apartment with these two people, that i'd rather not name. omg, it was terrible..these are the two very people i absolutely hate HATE running into. anyways it was weird..these two people(this couple, you might say) were making all these improvements in this home we were all going to move into. they were good at it too, at this home improvement type shit..it was pretty annoying. also in my dream we ALL went to Amoeba to buy some cds..and this chick, one of my "roommates" picked out all the artists that I was looking for!! i was so annoyed for reasons i don't wanna delve into..then we went home and there was this moon bouncy thing outside the apartment. then i finally woke up.

my roommate that's usually the best at researching and interpreting dreams is out of town right now..so i decided to get this off my chest by writing about it. uuuugh but how cruel is that..my dream!! i would never dream about moving in with THOSE people. i love where i live..i live in the backyard of my friend's house..a poolhouse you might say, hahaha. i basically live alone. i have my own entrance, my own bathroom and i never really have to interact with anyone else in the premises unless i choose to..and i love LOVE my roommates so it's not a problem. i would never dream about moving out..well not in the near future at least.

uugh just can't figure out why i had this nightmare.. thank G it was all just a dream!!